Today was hard. Not in the same sense as yesterday, which was where I felt exhausted and had a migraine…thankfully. But the cravings started, which in some aspects, is worse. Being tired and sore I can deal with, but cravings…those have always been my downfall.
It started off okay. My usual eggs for breakfast, then off to a job interview. On the way back I noticed I’d become hungry (a lot earlier than the past three days), but I tried to ignore it as it was still quite early. The naughty thoughts started creeping in – “God what I wouldn’t give for a donut right now” (I don’t know what it is about donuts lately but I can’t get enough of them) – but it was easy enough to push away. I came home and went on a 40 minute walk, refusing to believe I could actually be that hungry. After I got back, I ate a healthy lunch, and for the moment it was fine.
By about 2pm, I was starving again, despite having a bigger lunch than the previous three days. Again, I tried to ignore it, and got on with my day. Another job interview. I successfully ignored my hunger the whole way there and forgot about it during it. On the way home the cravings came back with a vengeance – “I could just swing by Maccas, it’d be so easy! Or I could pick up a pizza!” – and it took a lot of willpower not to do it, especially when I was stuck in peak hour traffic and my stomach was getting pretty annoyed at it’s lack of attention.
I ate dinner soon after I got home (about an hour ago now) and I’m hungry all over again. I know this is just my body trying to adjust to not having stacks of calories and sugar, but man, it’s a horrible feeling to be perpetually hungry. Especially when you’re trying your hardest to be good and not overeat!
I know this is just another step in the process and I’m not going to let it break me. I just hope this doesn’t go on forever!