Today was hard. I don’t know why specifically. I just felt extremely unmotivated. All I wanted was a pizza and to sleep on the couch. Honestly, I was close to doing just that. Previously, I most likely would have. I decided I wasn’t going to fall into that trap again though. I’ve come this far, and this will no doubt be the first of many “low days”, and I had to find a way to get through them. It was time to dig deep and find the self-control and self-motivation that, up until a week ago, I didn’t have much of.
I ate an okay breakfast (although I traded vegemite for honey) and a high protein lunch and dinner. I also made sure I went on my daily walk, even though I really wanted to bail on it. I even went so far as to say “it’s Sunday, I can rest today”. While having a rest day wouldn’t hurt, I knew if I started giving into my pathetic excuses, it would snowball as always. Plus, my dog was giving me her puppy eyes and I couldn’t tell her that I couldn’t be bothered.
The walk seemed tougher than usual too. I think it was because it was quite a warm day and I was already feeling pretty flat. The reason why I like walks so much (apart from the fact they make my doggy happy and I get a tan at the same time) is that once you start, you have to keep going no matter what, or you’ll be stranded. It’s easy to throw in the towel with exercise equipment because you haven’t actually gone anywhere. If you’re on a walk, it’s either keep going or sit on the side of the road until you decide to keep going. It means I’m not risking my self-motivation giving out, and it usually does. I know for a fact it would have today.
I hope tomorrow is a little easier. Even if it isn’t, I got through today and I’m sure I can do it again tomorrow. It will all be worth it soon enough!