Today wasn’t great. It wasn’t as bad as yesterday though. I slept horribly last night, I’m not sure why. I was just restless and woke up heaps of times and struggled to get back to sleep. Due to this, I was really tired all morning and felt very unmotivated. I was hungry but couldn’t be bothered eating. In the end, though, I gave myself a talking to and decided that – sleep or no sleep – I was going to get through today, just like I did yesterday.
I forced myself to eat a banana for breakfast, then went out on errands that I really didn’t want to go on, and that I’d been avoiding for awhile. I got lost on the way there (completely normal for me) and wound up doing three separate U-turns. Needless to say, I was pretty frustrated and it wasn’t a good morning. I got home and all I wanted to do was sleep, but once again, my body was like “hahaha no”. I once again found a bunch of excuses as to why I wasn’t going to exercise today, and once again, I refused to let myself give up. The sky was overcast but the temperature was nice and it wasn’t too windy (which is a small miracle where I live, because it’s almost always windy). I couldn’t bail on my walk today with the conditions so perfect for once. So I dragged my weary body off the couch and out the door.
Isn’t it funny how exercise should make you tired, but actually does the opposite? By the time the walk was over, I was wide awake. I guess the fresh air did me some good. I felt pretty good, even towards the end, where I tend to slow down and convince my feet to keep going. I think it helped it was overcast – I didn’t feel overheated and gross.
I got some good news later in the afternoon – after about 15 different interviews and a month and a half of frantically looking, I finally got offered a job! Not one I’d ideally have chosen, and only on a casual basis, but after so many rejections it’s a step in the right direction.
I kept up my healthy eating for dinner, and I may even try a 7-minute workout later tonight if my energy levels don’t crap out on me (which there is a risk of happening). I don’t know why I struggled so much with healthy eating before. Granted, it takes some effort and planning, but it’s not difficult. Other than fruit and a couple of naughty little after-dinner treats, I’ve pretty much cut out sugar. I’m only drinking water and milk (six months ago, I’d drink diet coke with most meals). I’ve completely cut out take away (six months ago I’d have it 3-4 times a week). I think now I’m rejoining the work force I may find it all a little bit harder, but I think it will be okay. I just have to be extra meticulous at planning ahead and I can’t let myself get lazy. I think I can do it!