I’m struggling. I have officially hit the wall. For me (maybe for everyone, I don’t know) there is always a point where all my good intentions and positive thoughts and motivation vanish. Sometimes, it happens suddenly. In this instance, it’s been more gradual, but it’s definitely happened, there’s no denying it.
About 90% of me wants to give up. Being fat sucks but it’s all I know. I’m not going to give up though. I’m allowing myself some time to refocus, as if I don’t I feel like I won’t be able to properly get back on board, then I’m going to get right back into it again. I need to.
I’m taking it a step further this time. Since I can’t trust myself to make healthy choices after a long day at work (this has become extremely apparent), I’ve ordered Lite N Easy for the first time in my life. My friends swear by it, and I think it will really help me, firstly because it’s calorie and portion controlled and also because I don’t have to cook it. It’s dead easy. A majority of my issues at dinnertime stem from the fact I really hate cooking. I mean, don’t get me wrong, when I say I hate cooking, I don’t mean all the time. If I’m relaxed or feeling creative, cooking is fantastic. I hate cooking, however, when I’m tired and hungry and grumpy. I hate it when it feels like a chore. So I really think Lite N Easy will be good for me. I’m really surprised about the meal choices too. That was one of the reasons I’d never done it previously – I was worried they wouldn’t have stuff I like, being a fussy eater. Instead, they have a huge selection and I feel a little spoilt for choice. I really hope it tastes as good as it looks in the pictures and doesn’t turn out to be the standard cardboard flavours of frozen dinners.
But what about breakfast and lunch? I hear you ask. I did consider going all out and ordering those meals as well, but having a look through the options, there were some that I didn’t particularly like the sound of, and this program isn’t exactly cheap. I guess there are more expensive options out there, but I didn’t want to spend big bucks on meals I wasn’t going to enjoy either. I find that during the day – provided I pre-plan and bring food from home – I’m generally okay with my eating habits. Even if I’m hungry, I’m working so I just have to suck it up. My plan is to eat healthy for breakfast – either eggs, weetbix or fruit & yoghurt – and have fruit for lunch. While probably not the most filling of meals, it’s healthy and easy. As I’ll soon be doing the long public transport commutes to my new job, I know even if I’m hungry by the time work ends, I won’t have the luxury of a sneaky trip through a Drive-Thru any more, which is generally what happens currently. Plus, I’ll be walking a lot more as part of the commute, so I think I’ll start losing weight again.
Aside from the new focus on dieting, nothing much has changed since my last post. It’s a public holiday today, so I’m getting paid to sit around at home in comfy clothes and catch up on my writing, which is great. I’ve got three days of training coming up, which generally I’d be dreading – and maybe I should be this time – but it sounds like it should be interesting. It’s all about the expectations and operations of my new store, as it’s going to be big and new on a scale they’ve only attempted once before. I love that I get to work in an environment that is all about embracing the future, and I see it as a great opportunity for experience and – hopefully – advancement. Plus, having such a huge team means I’ll no doubt wind up meeting some cool new people!
I’m procrastinating going grocery shopping. I’ve been putting it off since Saturday, and it’s crunch time as I’ve run out of dog food and need to go. I’m trying to hold out until at least 7pm, as trying to find a carpark there on a weekend or public holiday during the day is crazy. At least now I’ve ordered dinners for the next two weeks, my shopping trip should be pretty quick and easy!
Have any of you tried Lite N Easy (or other similar programs)? Let me know what you think!