Today was one of the best days I’ve had in a long time. I know, it’s basically the opposite of what I predicted yesterday. It was my first actual not-induction-or-computer-based-training day, at a place I didn’t think I ever wanted to go back to after how I was dismissed from my last job there.
I left the house early, expecting school traffic like there almost always is. I guess I left early enough to miss it, because I got a really smooth run. Usually that would be fine but I arrived half an hour early and I didn’t want to hang around near my old work. I also didn’t want to seem too eager at my new job…half an hour is overkill in anyone’s books. So I just sat in my car until it was time to go in. I was pretty nervous – more nervous than I was before my interview, my first day at induction and waiting to get my needle – as I didn’t know what it would be like if I came face-to-face with some of my ex-colleagues. Plus, I was also a little worried about having to meet so many new people all at once…it’s pretty much an introvert’s nightmare.
As I headed in, I gave myself a strong talking to. I wasn’t going to let bitches from my past bring me down. Instead of going the long way and avoiding the old store like I was tempted to do, I steeled myself and walked straight past. I didn’t see anyone, so for the moment it was all good. I headed into my new store and into a room full of people, most of whom didn’t know I was coming. After doing a round of introductions, I was already feeling a lot better. Everyone seemed really nice and the manager was cool. We discussed my telco history and what I’d been up to in induction. Then I buddied up with one of the guys and the day had officially started.
It went really well. I basically bounced between staff (and there were a lot on!) and watched what they were doing. Honestly, I would have preferred to be putting it through myself, but even watching I began to notice patterns and similarities to the programs I used in my last job. Everyone was so friendly and were all eager for a chat and to see what they could help me with. By mid-afternoon the manager checked in again and I told him that I feel very comfortable already and I could probably start processing stuff. He was pretty happy to let me do my own thing. I’m so glad I’ve landed in a store with a manager like that. I was dreading getting someone who wanted to stay by the book or who believed trainees shouldn’t serve customers. I made it clear from the start I wasn’t your regular run-of-the-mill newbie, but I still wasn’t sure how it would go.
The best parts of the day were when the delivery guys and phone reps came into store and their faces lit up when they saw me. I’d been in that shopping centre for a long, long time and I’d gotten to know these people well, along with all the security guards. They seemed like they’d genuinely missed seeing me, and I know I was happy to see their faces again. I laughed every time each one first saw me, as a look of confusion crossed them every time, like “wait, did I walk into the right store?”. I didn’t get to see my favourite delivery guy, though I’m sure in the month I’m working in the centre, I’ll cross paths with him. I was always a little sad about how abruptly my employment ended at my old job, because it meant I didn’t get to say any goodbyes to these guys. I know it probably sounds weird, but after seeing them multiple times a week for years, we got to know each other fairly well. I wouldn’t go so far as to say we were friends or anything, but we certainly had rapport and inside jokes.
Once 5 o’clock hit, I headed home. I intentionally walked past my old work with my uniform and lanyard on. I didn’t look in, but I wasn’t going to hide or sneak past either. If they saw, they saw. I’m not letting horrible people from my past control my life now. If they want to bitch or gossip or whatever, it doesn’t make any difference to me. They aren’t part of my life any more and karma is fast on it’s way, I’m sure.
I was feeling great when I got home, and decided to go for my walk. I’d gotten home a lot earlier now I was driving instead of catching public transport, and the weather wasn’t humid (thankfully!) so I headed out. I got just before halfway through my usual walk when I had to turn around and head home. My ankle (which has been sore for over a week) was getting worse. I could practically feel it swelling up. I should have worn my brace but it’s quite chunky and hard to fit into shoes. I hobbled home, really annoyed that for the first time in awhile I actually wanted to exercise, and now I was cutting it short. I iced it and put my brace back on and it’s feeling a little better again. I was planning on exercising both days this weekend and I still want to, but I don’t know if it’s a good idea. I can’t afford to hurt it any more, as my new job requires me to be on my feet all day. Why does my body fall apart when I need to it stay together the most?
Tomorrow I’m going to get my nails redone (I’m thinking purple this time) and then I’m catching up with some friends I haven’t seen in way too long. Should be a good day! I can’t wait until next week to get back to work. I haven’t felt this motivated for a very long time. I think my luck is finally starting to change. My ears have even stopped hurting almost completely – today is the first day I haven’t had to take painkillers. Such a relief!